Mom's birthday(=

It was my Mom's birthday today. I drove her to her doctor for a check-up and on the way she opened up conversation with me about my recent revelation. I felt relief. I was able to let go of more today. I felt lighter. After the doctor visit we went out for Casper's hot dogs. Yum(= It's the Bay Area version of Pink's, only way better. She told me how she used to go to the Casper's that we went to during her lunch breaks when she went to the same junior college that I went to. It's weird thinking of my mom being young at going to the same college and hang-outs that I went to. Cool-weird. After coming back home, a dark mood descended. It would not abate. I took a nap, it didn't help. We went to my sister's for a birthday dinner of BBQ'd hamburgers. Double yum in one day(= My sister and her family got my Mom a new gas BBQ, she was very happy. I got her three wonderful books by the this guy named Don Miguel Ruiz called: "The Four Agreements," "The Mastery of Love," and his newest, "The Voice of Knowledge." I pray that they will set her along the path of healing her own old wounds. We got home and watched 24 together. It was a wonderful end to my visit as 24 is our favorite show and it was really great to watch it with her. My dark mood lifted during the show and I feel that was due to simply being with my Mom, enjoying something that we both love together. Happy birthday Mom!!

Now, tomorrow brings a return trip that I am both dreading and embracing. I will greatly miss the clean air that I have been enjoying here. My return also brings the added stress of finding a psychiatrist, a search I am not looking forward to. It also brings Hamlet, whom I am eager to embrace. I feel him lurking inside me, brooding, waiting for release. May I grant him that without censor.