O' the joys of laughter...

One of the things that I am working on right now is accepting whatever emotion is occuring within me at the moment. I have spent the majority of my life ignoring and suppressing my negative emotions and that has had an effect on my life as a whole. Now I am beginning to admit that I have done and currently do this. So, in order to begin to correct this I have begun to accept whatever emotion I am feeling at the moment and going with it whether it be good or bad.

Well, today I was feeling pretty mediocre to down. Then I went to my acting class and things began to shift. I began to feel good. It didn't happen all at once, but gradually my mood went from a depressed state to one of definite satisfaction with a little bit of happiness thrown in for good measure. I think the motivating factor to this shift was the scene I signed up to do next week. Hamlet. To be or not to be. Yikes. I love this scene so much that I'm afraid of fucking it up, but that's not going to happen because I know this scene and my partner and I are going to rock it!

The truly fantastic part of the evening came much, much later. As in 3:30am later when I dropped my friend off at her house. We were talking outside and this random thing happened and we only had to look at each other in the eye for like a quarter of a second before we both started laughing uncontrollably for like a minute. Then another random moment occurred that was directly related to the first and I was rolling on the sidewalk fighting desperately for air, as I was laughing so hard that I literally could barely breathe, while my friend was collapsed in my front seat fighting for air right alongside me. God, I needed that so bad. I haven't laughed like that since the last time I laughed with her many, many months ago. She is so fantastic and I just wish we could spend more time together.